I’m trying to decide about a few things, and it’s mostly miserable trying to make decisions. I reason –listing pros and cons. Then I pray –listening for God’s direction. Then I reason again. Then pray some more.
But the conclusion is the same –I don’t know what to do.
Years ago I found these wonderful words the Israelites prayed, “We do not know what to do, but our eyes are upon you.” (2 Chronicles 20:12 NIV) Those are my default words every time I come to that pull-your-hair-out place –when reasoning leads to a dead end and a whole day of thinking and praying still hasn’t landed me on which way to go.
It’s the next verse that is the best. “All the men of Judah, with their wives and children and little ones, stood there before the Lord.” (2 Chronicles 20:13 NIV)
They just stood there.
This means a lot to me –this fact that the men and wives and children and little ones stood there –because the “what to do” decision will affect them all.
And doesn’t the whole family feel a momma’s decisions –what a momma decides to invest her life in –so shouldn’t the momma do a whole lot of standing?
Just standing there before the Lord.
Not always knowing what to do.
But knowing where to look.