Leaving The Mental Track of Worry

Leave The Mental Track of Worry -christyfitzwater.com

Quaint, I thought, as I checked into the Locomotive Inn. It was a stop-off on the 12-hour drive to visit my mom over spring break. Then I woke up at 2:30 in the morning to realize Oh, a locomotive! I made a mental note to think more literally next time I was motel shopping.

The train whistled only a stone’s throw from my room, leaving me wide awake, and worries began rolling through my mind.

All kinds of worries: money stuff, kid stuff, car stuff, school stuff, what-am-I-gonna-make-for-Easter-dinner stuff.

I worked the pillow a good one, as I tried sleeping on every side of me with no success. Anxiety about all of life grew, until I became a blurry-eyed, sheet-twisting pile of panic. (Isn’t nighttime the worst?) A feeling of helplessness filled me, but then the Lord snapped his fingers loud and got my attention with the word helpless.

Helpless, yes. I don’t like it.

Pride had me twisting and turning under the covers, because I wanted control of all the things. I wanted control! I wanted to know there would be enough money for everything. I wanted to know our old cars would keep going. I wanted to know I could pull off Easter dinner like a boss.

I said the word helpless once in disgust and then a second time in humble confession, and it was then the Lord lifted my eyes to his face and smiled. Look at me, he said. There in the night I started to see his qualities go by like train cars. Powerful. Rich. Provider. Shepherd. Father. All-seeing. Path Straightener. Caring.

Smooth and rhythmic, I turned from my list of worries and started working through the new list.

Wheels-a-turning, just like in the little picture book we used to read to Caleb when he was little.

God is able. God is able. God is able.


And with that I slipped into a restful sleep.

Psalm 29:2 says:

…worship the LORD in the splendor of his holiness. (NIV)

This is the remedy for all the churning, worrisome thoughts in our minds, to stop and think about who God is and what he can do. It takes mental effort, but it is this track of thinking that brings us to perfect peace. Will you say the word “helpless” over yourself today and then purposefully admire the One who is not?


  1. Thanks Christy Fitzwater. I found you through a most unlikely google search. I am so happy I did. I look forward to reading more.

  2. Yep, I’ll say the word “helpless” over myself today, relying on the One who is NOT helpless, but Who is more that able to handle whatever I face today. I’ll read the words above my kitchen window: “With God all things are possible”…and believe it!

    Thanks for the encouraging word today!

  3. Diane Nickerson says:

    As difficult as it is to admit I am helpless, there is always such peace when I admit what God already knows. Working on making that my FIRST reaction, not a last-ditch resort! So excited that there is a never-ending Source of peace in the middle of difficult circumstances and sleepless nights.

  4. This post brought tears to my eyes. Why do I forget that I serve such a great God? So many times I get caught up into the cares of the situation I am currently in. I feel the situation will last forever. I need to give it to God and trust Him because He knows what He is doing. Thank you for this post.

    1. I think it’s not so much that we forget who God is but that we have to be trained to think about him. Worship isn’t our natural default setting, so it takes a whole new skill of thinking and responding to life in a different way. I feel encouraged, though, that worship is something we can learn and practice!

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