Where To Find Your Sanity

Because I talked to a young mom recently about stress, with the home schooling and the four little kids and the new puppy, I’m going to be brave enough to tell you there have been times in the last five days when I’ve thought I might fly apart from stress.

I’ve been enjoying everything I’ve been doing so much that I haven’t notice stress kind of sneak up on me, but here it is keeping me from getting a full breath and a full night of sleep.

Sometimes life is like that moist pumpkin bread that tasted so good going down, but evidently I was dropping pieces of it on the way to the car.

What is this? My husband said, examining the bottom of his shoe.

Oh nothing, just part of my world falling through the cracks of my fingers because it’s hard to hold onto.

It’s 2:07 a.m. as I am writing this. Insomnia came a few hours earlier than normal.

But I have a story to tell you.

At 1:40 I was awake, making one more turn on the pillow in hopes of finding a go-to-sleep spot, thinking of a few other people I encountered just yesterday who feel like they’re about to lose it. A verse from my Bible study came to mind. 

“He is before all things, and in him all things hold together.” (Colossians 1:17 NIV)

Dear Jesus, do you hold it all together?

What if he doesn’t, and the stress of life can eventually fling our world apart?

Do you promise you hold it all together?

Finally giving up on sleep, I came downstairs to find words from Beth Moore in my inbox. She writes, “He is before all things, and in him all things hold together.”

Yes, God has these very words waiting for me, his Yes to my question.

“Name the name of Jesus,” Beth says.

The name is the glue.

In the same batch of email was a song from one of my readers. (Here I pause to say I need your words as much as you need mine.)

Listen to this, she says. Kari Jobe sings, “I just want to dwell on who you are. You’re beautiful to me.” In the middle of the night, I am confronted with the beautiful name of Jesus.

“We put no confidence in our flesh. We unleash every ounce of confidence we possess toward one game-changing, life-rearranging Name: The Lord Jesus Christ.”  -Beth Moore

We must look here for our daily sanity.  -christyfitzwater.comWhen I was younger, I heard the story of a woman in our church who was dying of cancer. She said when the pain was intense she would say the name of Jesus over and over again. That’s what gave her strength to keep going.

We can’t hold ourselves together.

Only the steely arms of Jesus can wrap warm around the heart of a woman and keep her whole.


  1. This post reminded me, when I was growing up, my dad would often play the piano and sing after tucking us into bed. He would sing the song….Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, there’s just something about that name. It brought so much comfort and is still one of my favorite songs to sing, especially when I’m troubled. Thanks for sharing your life with us, Christy! Blessings to you. I’m going to pray you sleep tonight 🙂

    1. That’s precious -I actually thought of that song as I was writing this post. I think I need to sing it right now…

      By the way, I slept AWESOME!!!! Thanks for the prayers. 🙂

  2. Dottie Ward says:

    Yes, 81 years old and His Name is still holding it all together.

  3. I had a few demonic nightmares when I was very young. Note, I did not get on the right path with Jesus till 2009. In my very early memories in those nightmares I would call out “Jesus Christ help me !” Poof the nightmare ended and there was calm. I do not remember discussing these dreams with anyone for them to tell me what to do. This was before I chose to live for Him.
    He is a giver of strength even before we choose to surrender. He knows what we need when we need it. It is never God’s will to be in worry or to be in torment. All we need to do is call on HIS PERFECT and HOLY NAME !
    Jesus Christ help us !

    1. It’s amazing the power in the name of Jesus! We really have no idea the darkness we fight against every day.

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