Disgusted with Yourself?

Disgusted –that’s what I am as I write this at 9:53 p.m.

Disgusted with myself for not exercising.

For not doing the yard work I need to do.

For not planning meals.

For not making meals. (Unless microwavable pot roast by Tyson counts.)

“Like a city whose walls are broken through is a person who lacks self-control.” (Proverbs 25:28 NIV)

That’s exactly what it feels like -defenses down, like I’m going to be destroyed from every direction.

Time to shore things up.

So I look to the morning and the new day, to grab a trowel and start rebuilding the wall one brick at a time.

Disgusted with your lack of self-control?  -christyfitzwater.com

I’m going to set out my tennis shoes and clothes before I head to bed, so I can start the morning by taking a walk. God raised Jesus from the dead. I know he can help me get my buns out the door for a 30-minute walk, if I ask him.

(Would you drop me a note and ask if I actually put those tennis shoes on and used them? Thank you.)

And you, sister? What brick of self-control could you lay today?


  1. Christy, I did get my walk in today…..but I smiled when I read your post because I just chewed myself out for not holding my tongue with someone today. I did see a bit and bridle in the back of my car. Considering trying that “)

    1. You made me laugh out loud. Maybe I need to carry around a bit and bridle in my purse, as a reminder!!

  2. Hope you felt refreshed from your time outdoors! I’ve been trying to prioritize walks and getting outside for some exercise with the kids too 🙂 The thing that God is laying on my heart right now is to really be present for my kids during the day…I am often spending too much time being distracted by emails, social media and internet on my phone. Thank you for this honest post, it really resonated and encouraged me when I read it today 🙂

    1. I understand that pull to the internet -like an addiction. I pray God will help us control the time we spend there. Glad you were encouraged!

  3. I live in what seems like a perpetual state of “disgusted” with myself. I don’t even know where to start…………….there are SO MANY BRICKS and they all have a different name, and they are all demanding my attention right now. My own behavior outrages me (and enrages me), but I can’t seem to do anything about it. I don’t even know WHAT to pray for. Aaaacckkkkk!!! Thank you for letting me know that I’m not totally alone, and that there IS hope. Hugs!

    1. Yeah, the trick is getting rid of the word “perpetual”. I find that when I start letting things slip, if I’ll just kick it in gear in one area, it has a domino effect in the others. Because I went for a walk I felt some success, so then I did my leg strength training exercises. That made me feel so victorious that I went outside and did yardwork. And All of that made me turn down a piece of candy I started to reach for, because I didn’t want to ruin how well I was doing.

      One brick, sister. Just pick one brick and see what happens. Hugs right back to you!

  4. Hi Christy: And? did you put on your walking shoes and go for a walk? I too am struggling with motivating myself one step at a time to do better each week than the previous week, whether it is walking, eating healthier or writing my next book. It’s difficult.

    1. It is hard, but I was telling my daughter we just have to get up the next day and try again. If at first you don’t succeed…

  5. So – – – did you?

  6. Did you? I know you did! I believe in you, sister! Our amazing God does to!
    For me? Keeping my mind and heart free from guilt…..ouch.

    1. Praying your heart and mind are filled with grace so there’s no room for that weight of guilt.

  7. So… Did you put the shoes on, and get out there?

  8. Did you make it out the door? I am heading downstairs to my treadmill right now. We can do this.

    1. I did go for a walk, not looking closely enough at the sky before I left. I came back dripping rain water, but it felt good!

  9. Food!

  10. Did you? Be encouraged my dear sweet sister in Christ!

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