If you’ve been reading my blog post these past three weeks, you know I have gone down to the bottom emotionally and then up again. You’ve probably thought, This girl needs counseling. Well, I sleep with a licensed professional counselor every night, and that hasn’t seemed to help.
Thank you for sticking around. I can’t believe you show up here every day and read all my ups and down. Do you know I think about you as friends? I sit here in my basement, wearing pajamas that have this gaping hole under one armpit (Mom, if you’re reading this: NEED NEW JAMIES!), and I think about who you are on the other end of this blog. I wonder what you’re going through. Are you depressed like me? Joyful like me? Doubting yourself like me?
I’m such a girl –moods changing as fast as the Montana weather. My son wore a heavy sweatshirt and shorts and flip-flips to school the other day. He said, Well, at least half of me will be prepared for whatever the weather turns out to be today. I feel like that’s what you get when you come to my blog. Maybe bring a Kleenex and a tambourine –and you’ll be prepared for whatever the “emotion of the day” is.
I want to tell you –when I started writing (over 350 blog posts ago –wow!) I made one hard rule for myself. I determined that I would ONLY sit down and write about what God is personally doing in my life in that very moment.
Which is why you get this jumbled up mess of joy and understanding and confusion and tears (oh, ever so many tears) and loneliness and frustration and praise. That’s what girls are like, and that’s what girls following Christ are like!
But as I have struggled these past few weeks, God has been with me every day. He has revealed to me my sin. He has encouraged me. He has answered every stinkin’ question, sometimes faster than I can ask them.
My husband went to this pastor’s conference in Florida this last week, and I was able to watch it on live webcast. (I actually saw the camera pass over his beautiful bald head several times!!) Well, every single thing God was showing me in my personal time with Him was repeated over and over at the conference. That is just cool. When God wants to get His point across, He can do it with power.
I met with an 80-year-old woman for tea a few days ago, and she said, You can’t go from mountaintop to mountaintop. There have to be trips through the valleys, too. Thanks for walking through the valleys with me. Thanks for the encouraging words you’ve sent my way. I really like the relationship we have here, and I love it when you send me little notes about what God is doing in your life. They keep me going!
Hope you have a soul-satisfying day. Rest hard. Go spend a few minutes in the sunshine. And worship our Almighty God with abandon!