That Uncontrollable Emotion
Someone may have to shampoo my hair for me today, because I spent a long time bent over in the garden yesterday, weeding rows of potatoes and spinach. My arms and shoulders are sore.
Gardening makes Tim Kellerโs words, in Counterfeit Gods, more meaningfulย to me today:
When you โpull your emotions up by the roots,โ as it were, you will often find your idols clinging to them.
Thatโs definitely what I went through recently, in pulling up paralyzing feelings of inadequacy I struggled with on a daily basis. Low and behold, there was the idol of people pleasing clinging to those long roots. There I was, bending my knees in worship of the judgment of other people, even worshiping my own self-judgment. And I found Tim Keller’s words to be true, that idols always disappoint.
What uncontrollable emotion gets the best of you regularly? Anxiety? Anger? Guilt? Fear? Hopelessness? Self-loathing?
I ask you a simple question today: Is it possibleย an idol is wrapping its life-choking tendrils around the root of what you feel?
โI am the Lord your GodโฆYou shall have no other gods before me. You shall not make for yourself an idol in the form of anythingโฆโ (Exodus 20:2-4 NIV)
Since recognizing my idolatry, repenting, and learning how to replace that idolatrous practice with a gospel-centered practice, I feel an indescribable emotional freedom. Itย has beenย a painful process, but I find myself begging God, Are there any more? Show me every idol clinging to my heart and letโs pull it. Itโs a good kind of hurt to gain freedom.
Of course,ย if we discover idolatryย clinging to the rootsย of the emotion, we are thenย required to takeย responsibility for what we feel.
Do you know what Iโve been praying for my church? That God would dredge up the idolatry โbring it to the surface and help each one of us see it for what it is. And I pray this for you today, that God will pull up your out-of-control emotion(s) by the roots and let you see whatโs clinging there. The root problem may not be idolatry, but maybe it is. Can you imagine how emotionally healthy we could be with the purging of idols?
Emotional peace. Aaaaah. It’s what we’re all looking for.
So let theย pulling begin.