How to Go from Anger to Love

How to Go from Anger to Love -christyfitzwater.comI have a lot of nerve with this blog post title, as if I’m an expert or something. So, let me be clear that I had one successful moment handling my anger a few nights ago that I’m going to tell you about. As a teacher, I know that sometimes when trying to learn something, if you can get a taste of how to do it the right way one time, it’s easier to re-create the correct mental pathway again and again.

It was 5:30 and I was driving to church in the dark. As I came down the hill of our subdivision, there was a man, maybe in his late 20s, walking his dog on the side of the road. As I got closer, he flipped me off with both hands and threw me a furious look.

Oh my word, what had I done? I quickly looked at my speed, because maybe I had been speeding and he felt like I was driving recklessly, but no, I was driving the speed limit. I had even been swerving to the left a bit, to give him and his dog plenty of room as I drove around. That wasn’t it. Just as I got close, he mouthed the words, “Your brights are on.”

My brights were on. He assaulted me because I accidentally had turned on the brights in my car. Wow.

Then came a cascade of thoughts and feelings, the first of which was white hot anger. How rude he was! I imagined hitting the breaks, backing up, rolling down my window, and giving him what for.

What for: all of the scathing words you want to hurl at someone so that they feel humiliated and more miserable than they just made you feel.

But the Holy Spirit of God went to work in my mind, and I mean roll-up-your-sleeves, nose-to-nose kind of work.

First thing he did was turn his brights on me. Just that morning I had prayed about my personal battle with anger. He’s been showing me for a few years now that I do anger the same way I drive, 0-to-60 in less than a minute. I’ve been begging him to help me get this part of my life under control.

Jesus said to me, See what uncontrolled anger looks like? My stomach flipped. Yuck.

The rage in me over what had happened started to cool, as I did planks.

Planks: When you consider what’s stuck in your own eye instead of spending too much attention worrying about the sliver of sin stuck in someone else’s.

My initial fury at the young man’s assault changed to a shocking realization that the only difference between me and him is that I’ve had the Spirit kneading anger out of my heart. What if I didn’t know Jesus? What if I didn’t have Bible verses piling up in my heart about how anger is to be handled by Kingdom citizens? What if I didn’t have someone to intervene when I was starting to boil? Who would I be?

The heat of my anger then cooled completely, when I felt a sudden pity for the young man who obviously did not know Jesus.

I continued on to church, and we sang, “What can wash away my sins? Nothing but the blood of Jesus. What can make me whole again? Nothing but the blood of Jesus.” My heart filled with love and gratitude for Jesus and then an unexpected love for the offensive young man. I prayed that the Spirit of Jesus would interrupt his life and help him get rid of anger the way he was helping me get rid of mine.

So there you have it -how I went from anger to compassion and love in less than an hour. A modern-day miracle, just in case you think those don’t exist.

I guess it comes down to three things: one is that if I’m abiding in Christ daily, he will give me opportunities to learn and grow. Second is that anger can only go away at the cross, where I remember again and again that I have a serious sin problem (as bad or worse than the person who has offended me) and only the merciful blood of Jesus can change that. Third is that the person who offends me needs the love and help of Jesus, so praying for him is better than giving what for.

Really, it’s all about Jesus. If we didn’t have his patient love and help in our minds and hearts, what kind of people would we be?

14 Comments

  1. Nancy Kenaston says:

    Thank you Christy! Your words “my personal battle with anger. He’s been showing me for a few years now that I do anger the same way I drive, 0-to-60 in less than a minute. I’ve been begging him to help me get this part of my life under control.” were a mirror reflection of what I struggle with. Thank you so much for sharing your story/experience. I DO believe in these types of modern day miracles. Anger to compassion = turn to Him + remember I’m a sinner too + let Him change me + worship Him + pray for the other person. Thank you again for your transparency, vulnerability and generous heart in sharing with us.

    1. I’m glad I’m not the only one who struggles with anger. It feels very unlady-like. I pray the Lord will help you and me get rid of it from our lives.

  2. Thieu-Tiet says:

    Wow! Talking about timely and how the Lord sends help His way.

    Early this morning I thought to myself “you must get a hold of yourself and not giving in to anger” then quickly changed to “Lord God, I myself cannot get a hold of myself, please help me” – just like that man in the New Testament “help my unbelief”.

    I remember again to not give in to anger by aligning my thoughts with Scripture. That is a moment to moment reminder for me.

    Lo and behold, your article AND the title, can’t be more fitting or better timing.

    Thank you, Christy, for revealing your own struggle and how to battle it.

    Much blessing,

    Tiet

    1. It’s encouraging that when we truly want to be obedient to the Lord, he sends us all of the help we need along the way! A good reminder that we don’t have to try to improve ourselves by our own power.

  3. Lindsey Norman says:

    Those moments when God is so tender he just gently reveals and allows us to see…so humbling and life changing! Thank you for sharing.

    1. Yes, although I must say that learning to control anger has not been a very fun journey. 🙂

  4. Wonderful Word, Christy! 🌻
    I deal with “mean traffic” all day at work, as I drive a semi around town, delivering gasoline. I get so mad sometimes at the way people treat others on the road. Then I realize my “bad-itude” ain’t no better since moments! Thank you for this beautiful way to turn our hearts back to Love in Jesus’ Name! He truly *is* Who is all about! 🤍

    1. *some moments 😉

    2. I do think being on the road can bring out the worst in all of us, if we’re not careful.

      1. So true! 😊
        I thank the Lord for His grace and all the lessons I’ve been learning. ❤

  5. Allison McIntosh says:

    I love you…I love your transparency and the way you take everyday life, and point others to Jesus…I pray you are blessed beyond anything you could ask! Big squeeze from NC! ☺️

  6. You won’t believe this. I am a Bible believing, blood bought Christian. And I struggle with migraine headaches. One thing in particular that can trigger them is bright lights. I have actually also reacted in anger to people who drive with their brights on. I just want to tell you… he may not have his anger under control. But if he had a headache that morning when he flipped you off, he may actually be a Bible believing, blood bought Christian also. I love you. Thanks for your words.

    1. That is a really helpful perspective. I’m trying hard to see people in a bigger light than just one moment. (And I’m sorry about the migraines!!!)

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