For An Insecure Kind of Day

For An Insecure Kind of Day  -christyfitzwater.com

I was a choir nerd in high school. You know what I mean. I lived in my world, and the jocks lived in theirs -never the two shall meet. Then a cheerleader joined choir, and we got to know each other.

It was the Friday of a big football game, and the whole school filed to the gym for a pep assembly. The cheerleaders got up to do the normal, embarrass-the-jocks game, except my new cheerleader friend thought it would be fun to include me. Mortified by hearing my name called, I went down to the gym floor and lined up with the populars.

The bat game.

Put your head on the bat and spin around 15 times and then try to walk across the gym. (Are you not moaning in agony for me as I tell this story? It’s making my stomach hurt just remembering.)

I’m feeling that same feeling again today –vulnerable and exposed.

Have you ever been going along just fine and then all of a sudden you feel like you just took 15 turns around a bat in front of a room full of people? I don’t know why I feel that way today.

After the assembly, one friend walked by me in the hallway and gave me a look of compassion -no words, just a look that let me know he understood how I felt and that he cared. That look helped me breathe again.

What stabilizes us when we are hit by a wave of insecurity?

We need a friend.

The writer of Hebrews 12:2 says where to look on an exposed-in-front-of-everybody kind of day.

Fix your eyes on Jesus…

Jesus knew what it was like to have all eyes him when he was naked, hanging on the cross, so he understands how you feel.

We need a relationship with someone this safe.