Maybe this is what happens when you’re a year and a half into blogging every day, but lately I’ve been feeling like every sentence I publish is pathetic. Plagued with self-doubt, I’ve been laboring to be brave enough to write what’s on my heart and allow you to see it.
But last night I had a thought that made me laugh out loud.
Above my writing desk is a shelf, and on that shelf is this pinch pot that my son made for me years ago. I’m not a photographer, but I thought you’d want to see it:
I said, Lord, I feel like my blog posts are like this pinch pot. That’s when I laughed. Brown handle, black lid, pink-black-orange flowers, and a yellow base. This is the “beauty” my son presented to me. I made this for you, mom!
When I push back from the computer and re-read and edit my fresh blog posts every day, often the words I have typed on the screen seem like this clay “beauty”.
Ask my husband how many times I walk upstairs after writing, and he says, What have you been doing? I say, Writing tomorrow’s blog post. It’s probably stupid.
But now I am sober, as I hold my son’s work of art in my hands. I love this pinch pot. It’s still sitting on my desk because my little boy made it just for me, and I think it’s beautiful. I smile every time I look at it, not because it’s perfect or my favorite colors –but because he was thinking of me when he crafted it.
Oh yes, this is what mothers do. We proudly display our child’s creation and make no apologies for it. Watercolor pictures go on the fridge. Rock treasures are often piled on the kitchen window sill. Pipe cleaner flowers are lovingly placed in the crystal vase. I still have a cross that I display every Easter –that my daughter made out of tongue depressors, Styrofoam, and glued-on sequins.
It makes sense, then, that the greatest command in the Bible is not, “Bring fine works of art to your God.” It is, “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength.” (Deuteronomy 6:5 NIV) Love is what gets the highest appraisal from our Father in heaven.
And how does God respond when we offer Him our lopsided and only-a-mother-could-love service? James tells us, “God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.” (James 4:6 NIV)
It is in my favor to say, I made this for you, Lord. It’s far from perfect, but I love You.
So I will continue to blog, as an expression of my love and service to the Lord. Sometimes I will write something outstanding that will capture the hearts of all who read it, but most of the time not. Yet I am convinced today that God wants to display my pinch-pot words. Maybe in His eyes they’re even beautiful? And maybe your eyes need to see that God readily uses the not-so-magnificent people to do work for Him.
What about you? Have you been holding out on offering your gifts and service to the Lord because you think they’re stupid or ugly or lacking? Please don’t wait for perfection. Bring them humbly as a gift of love to your God, and give Him the right to display them as He wishes.